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So afraid...........




I am afraid just so afraid to try
I am afraid that I might just fail
I am afraid that I expect too much
I am afraid that people trust me
I am afraid that it might not be real

Yes, I have heard those legends
I have read those stories too
They say that it’s all worth the pain
They say that doers never fail
They told me to believe
They told me to prepare
They asked me to adapt
They know I’ll improvise

Then why am I so afraid?
What if I fall down?
What if they laugh at me?
What everything cracks down like a mirror?
What if I can’t get up?

Let’s just say I am not good enough
Let’s just say I gave up




Comments

  1. Ishan MathurMay 29, 2012 at 8:02 AM

    I know that anything written should be a step forward towards positivism but it's just a raw scribble of a time that I guess everyone sees in life.

    Here's the part ahead but just wanted to have this one in dark shades so didn't add it.

    Still there’s a part that wants it
    Still there’re emotions that flow in
    Maybe that’s why I want to jump in
    May be still I believe in it

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  2. IreneMay 29, 2012 at 8:10 AM

    true in evry bloody sense, relationshps, life, work. it happens :(

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  3. Ishan MathurMay 29, 2012 at 8:15 AM

    thanks for reading and writing again :)

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  4. SaumyaMay 29, 2012 at 10:18 PM

    Really nice, moreover very true!! This is exactly how we feel :(

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