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From diary of Girl in Red I




 12. June.2007


He asks me every day ‘Do you love me’. What should I say? Should I say that I love you eternally? Or should I say that I love you unconditionally? He asks me every day ‘How much do you love me’. Should I say I that I am ready to leave every single thing I have known in my life for you? Or should I say that I have planned my days, my weeks, my months, and my years around you? I wish I could compare my love with the mountains and the snowfall, I wish I could reply with a poem or a line that’s new. I wish I could say that I am scared to lose you. I wish could say that I was born to be with you. But I choose to say ‘I do’ and smile, hoping that he can read just a part of it in my eyes.

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